Erase and Rewrite.... Rinse, Wash and Repeat.....

So here I am again typing and with that bringing you another blog entry of..... my life..... feeling kinda drained out right now.... well it is a Sunday, a day where you stop and see the events of past week and to refill all that has been drained out and to cherish what is still left.....

A little odd event happened yesterday when I started typing this blog entry..... it started with MSN Messenger.... one of the people in my contact list came online and I remember that person messaged me before and so I clicked, open up the chat window and sent out the usual greeting.... and while all that was happening, in my mind, I keep wondering who is this? how am I related to his person? how did this person got onto my contact list? why is this person on my contact list?..... and the strings of question goes on and on..... and so this person and I went on asking each other questions trying to get a grip on who's who.... and then the key words..... my name.... the person asked for my name.... and so I typed it out, and from the first reply that person gave me, in that instant as well..... I SUDDENLY REMEMBERED HIM!! and he remembered me as well..... as if a shroud has been lifted and everything is extremely clear now..... a thread has been rewoven back into the fabric..... I am disturbed by how I could have forgotten this person.... as if he didn't exist in my life and suddenly he appeared in my memories again..... as true as the saying goes "Those who are forgotten, Cease to exist"..... but in the end, it is truly good to know that my memory of him is not gone.... it was just stored in my mind, in a chest.... waiting to be reopen again, and so.... to cherish the moment again..... well my friend, hope to see you soon and best wishes to your life....

Went to a party yesterday.... a birthday party..... of some one I didn't know then.... how did I ended up there.... well the party was put up on announcement in the MANIFEST forums.... so about everyone, that go into the forums, is invited.... and then so I went there, a trip which took about almost almost an hour including public transport waiting time.... on the way, I got down at the wrong stop.... far to early.... why?! cause the directions given was to get down at Safeway(a supermarket), but what the announcer didn't notice was that on the way to the party place, there are 3 SAFEWAYS!!!.... so I didn't know and got down at the first one.... and of course to no surprise I couldn't find the road.... the after some calls and investigating only I came to know that I was at the wrong place *sigh*..... now at the party.... there were very few people that I know, some I've seen before but don't really know, don't know at all, suppose to know, could have known..... nope, no one that I really know..... didn't do much at the party either than playing Soul Calibur 2 most of the time.... it seems that beating me in the game was like reaching nirvana, everyone was hoping I will be defeated.... well I did, once, after that, it was a winning streak..... defeated the birthday boy 10 ten times before he gave up :P..... hmmm.... I didn't even get a cake nor any photos of me taken :(.... in a way, I was there but was not as well... I was quiet for most of the time in the party, no one to talk to, nothing to talk about, and when there was a conversation going on, I just couldn't get along with the flow of it... but... all in all, I have to say, the party was quite odd for me.... weird.... not normal.... etc etc etc.....

At times when I just sit down and do nothing or sometimes even do something.... I start to think of certain stuff differently.... I could list them out here but they are already lost.... lost in my other thoughts..... I keep telling myself that I should write it down next time, but that isn't happening yet X( .....perhaps next time.... I really want to type them out here so I could get an opinion on my thoughts and also just to share them with you.....

This blog was actually written in the wee hours of the morning yesterday, I just didn't finish it till now.... too sleepy, too tired.... well, glad its done now.... till next thought.......

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Whew.... I can't think of a title this time so please insert what you see fit at the title area.... I can't be bothered about it :P..... Well as you can see, my blogging frequency has gone down now, most probably due to the many other stuff occupying me now.... I think I blog more when I'm feeling down.... maybe I see my blog as somewhere to let out.... somewhere where I feel more comfortable to let out.... perhaps that's quite silly since this blog is read by many..... is it that I want everyone to know my problems.... or is there just no one for me to go tell to..... now, before you come approaching me or sending me a msg saying that you are always there if I need you or I can always tell my problems to you.... think properly, do you really mean what you say? are you really really willing to listen to me? or are you saying cause u think its the right thing to say now?!.....

Ok, now for the events of the past days..... last Friday's anime night, we played Tekken 5, watched some of the ending for the game as well.... Nina's ending was the best :P..... Now with how Uni is going, anime night is something which I look forward to very much more than before.....

Went to the Moomba Water Festival on Saturday night.... its..... quite similiar to last year.... carnivals, food, firreworks show.... played some games in the carnival... one of them was that you have to cover a big red circle on a board by dropping 5 smaller circles on it, failed though... but my friend got a complimentary prize for doing the unconventional method of covering the red circle.... he got a Pooh bear for it.... I was aiming for an orange dragon and I got it by another game, somewhat like a lucky draw game.... in this game, you have to buy cards from them and in each card there are 5 different sets of numbers, all you got to do it to match the numbers on your card to the one on the main board and I got it, it was number 15.... after the fireworks show, me and my friends walk for a bit more and then it was time to go back.... and then there's me who sat in the tram, hugging and falling asleep on my orange dragon in an hour tram ride back home.....the Moomba Water Festival ends tonight.....

It was a hot Sunday afternoon, so I decided to go to the Knox Shopping Centre to get away from the heat even if its for a while..... I reached there at almost closing time, so I did walk around very quickly..... bought a new game, DONKEY KONGA for the Gamecube.... lots of fun with it..... hope some one else has it so they can play with me.... not much fun playing alone though..... ok back to the Knox part.... well since its Sunday and the bus I know of doesn't go to Knox on Sundays so my only known way home was taxi.... unfortunately there was almost none in sight and I figured that I couldn't and didn't want to wait for a long time for another taxi and instead, I try my luck with one of the other buses that goes there..... luckily the bus I got on to stops at a train station, I didn't know which train station it was actually but any train station will be good since its easier for me to go where I want to as all the train lines ends up in the city..... luckilyfor me, the train station the bus stopped at was a train station in the Belgrave line, which is a line that stops in Box Hill as well, which means that I don't need to go down all the way to the city to change train at all, YAY!!.... then from Box Hill I took a bus back home.... now I know that there is a way to go to Knox on Sunday using the public transport.... but it is an indirect route, which I don't think I'll be using very very often in the future.....

Well the Deakin Anime Club (DAC) marathon has been planned last Thursday...... All that is to do now is to wait for the day to come.... its on the 30th of March.... there'll be games, animes, food and etc.... if you're interested, msg me ;).....

In one of my friend's recent blog, he said that one of his friends' committed suicide and made him and me as well wonder why did she(the person who comitted suicide) did it?!.... Even though I am not related to her nor have do I know her, I am still curios into what can drive a person to commit suicide.... is it to an extreme where nothing else in the world ever matters anymore to her.... or is life like a game to her, end it now and then start a new one.... I hope wherever she is now, "Don't regret for what you have as it has already happened and unless some divine power is gonna help you..... Enjoy your new life".... Will my life end like this way too? :/ .... wait, that is all to it, and the answer will come....

and now we have come to the end of this entry.... thank you for your time, thank you for reading..... please drop in a comment or more.... your comments will encourage me to write more.... till the next meeting, good health and happy days to you ;).....

And So, It Went..... And Then........

About 8 days ago.... it was my birthday..... nothing really special happened, even though I wanted it too..... the day just passed on like any other day.... as fast as it arrived, as fast as it went by.... now we wait for the next and so on.... but for how long more we wait?!.... forever?!.... perhaps birthdays are there to remind us that we are still lucky to be alive.... maybe, its not our time to go yet, we still have something yet to accomplish.... then comes the matter of how and when we will leave this world?.... will it be in an instant or slowly and suffering?!....

DAC had a good turn out last week.... mainly cause our main timetable has started.... this semester we started off with Samurai Champloo, BECK, Kannazuki no Miko, Yakitate Japan, and KURAU Phantom Memory.... so for those who joined up and is reading this.... be there at the screenings for its not too late yet!!.... don't only borrow animes from the library, ATTEND the screenings to get your money's worth!!

Well, into the second week of UNI now.... there is one subject that I've taken(without much prior knowledge to it) that I totally abhor..... I'm sooo tooooottaaalllyyyy blank about that subject.... now I'm trying to change that subject to another one, perhaps a photography subject.... I do really hope I am able to change the subjects without much trouble.... I really really really don't want to do Art & Cultural Production.... its not that the lecturer is no good, I just don't like the subject..... Actually I'm not really fond of how the class system works in UNI as well.... lets say I have subject A lecture on Monday and then, the tutorial only happens on Thursday.... so it feels like I've started the subject on Monday but I don't really feel like it has ended until Thursday, imagine you're in class for 3 days but you know you're not, a feeling you can't shake off....

Ya know, I have said a lot of things that I actually regret that it even came out of my mouth.... as we know, words said out can never be taken back.... and words even though intangible and invisible, can be either candy to a person or a sword through your heart!!..... Time after time, I don't usually get the chance to apologize for the things I've said.... so now, I take the chance.... to whoever is reading this!! I'm VERY sorry for the bad and stupid things I've said and I hope you are able to forgive me..... Forgiveness.......